Peaceful Days . . .

So I have today and tomorrow off, then back to work Thursday and Friday. I'm glad though that I will not be working phones those days. My last few days on phones was a little . . .

People are hurting, and when they are hurting others because of it tragedies can occur. Thankfully, we were able to help someone prevent a tragedy, but man, it shook me up a bit. Suicide attempt, with knives . . . screaming . . . hysteria . . .

I am glad that today and tomorrow I am off. :) God has equipped me with means to deal with this job, but I truly hope He doesn't plan for me to be here for a long time. I would rather be helping people to prevent this type of thing from happening, then trying to send help when it does happen. Though I am relieved we were able to help and prevent that situation from escalating into the direction it was heading.

Thank you Lord for days like today :) Went to the gym and did aqua-size with mom and some other friends, took mom to lunch, came home and relaxed. Mom made a fantastic pot-pie, we made pumpkin pie as a joint effort and it turned out wonderful too. And the pups . . . crazy fun critters :) I love my dogs. :) Yeah, thank you Lord for today.

Contemplation

It's been over a month since my last post and a lot has happened since then. At work I have been moved from trainer to trainer, so my schedule has been different every week for the last month. I have learned a lot and there is so much more to learn. There is just so much information in being a call-taker and dispatcher. You could probably go to school for a few years for it and still need several months of one on one training. It is fascinating, exciting at times, boring at times and I have a whole new appreciation for the police, fire and ems units out there.

Now my schedule is working Sabbaths. I honestly do not mind working in an emergency service on Sabbath occationally, however I really do not feel it right to do every Sabbath. I have talked it over with my training supervisor and she is going to see what they can do, but I am now wondering what God may be wanting me to learn or to do. He led me to this job, opened the door, provided an income, even opened up Sabbaths for me. Now I'm back to having all Sabbaths for the next few months and I've been getting a feeling, or impression, that God wants me to trust Him and do something different. I actually think He is telling me see, I can take care of you anywhere, but you belong working with children and in ministry. I miss working with youth. I miss being a part of my church family.

I'm really confused and frustrated and my heart feels heavy, as if it is breaking . . . like I'm not quite catching on to what He wants me to do now. I need an income, and yet . . . Lord please give me a sign, show me what I need to do now. I've begun the process of applying to schools for next school year, but in the mean time I just ask that my friends and family keep praying about this situation and that God makes it very clear what I should do in the next few days/weeks.

It is such a lovely Sabbath, and I wish that I could be worshiping with friends and family today. However, I will go to the call center and be there and maybe make a difference in someone's life today for the better. :)